Reasons

[ymusti]

I think (and I do that a little too much than healthy) that maybe, just maybe, I was just an angry teenager who just had to release all that pent up anger. That that rather large bottle labeled "anger" in my heart was filled with angst enough to last me a year. So it was just right that I built up walls for myself, surrounded myself with happy things and just became happy. It was alright that I kept to myself and lived in my own world and made myself happy that way.

And now, I think I've used up all that anger and stuff. And I think I might just be ready to get out of here to see what else makes me happy.

Comments

[quirkytizzy]

I love this entry. :) Sometimes things are survival mechanisms, meant to keep us going until we are ready to do something else. While anger is natural and you will feel it again, maybe it'll be a different kind of anger. Shedding this one because it's no longer useful.

It took me decades (and still is) to learn sometimes you have to let go of old coping mechanisms that USED to work but do not now work.