You've got a really interesting experience with High School. Being as self-aware as you are, you are both living your school life and watching yourself live it at the same time. This is part of why people write, but you are doing this at a time in your life when divorcing yourself from the experience is nearly impossible. I can promise that very few of your peers are not only not doing this, but UNABLE to do this.

You are able to. And you are doing it. It makes me jealous - if I'd had HALF of your awareness of your experiences.....*sigh*

Things are strange when it comes to sentiment. A lot of people have the idea that those things will always be around, or that their memory will be stronger than it will be, or whatever. Usually that's not true. But if you do what YOU do, which is write it all out, then you HAVE what you need for the memory recall.

And yeah, sure, your Dad is right in that there will be some things that later you may want to hold onto, physically and in memory. But if someone tries to convince you that you'll miss everything and everyone in HS?

That's bullshit.

You talk about the word "hate" here. Do you really hate it, or is it more just wanting to be away from that place and this time in your life???